just a thought..

When you really want something, like really want something, something you've been wanting for a long time. You work hard for it, and you're patient. You'll do what needs to be done to get it. You try to get it and you fail, not once but numerous times. Your desire is still strong though. So you work harder and you stay persistent.

You finally get it. You tell yourself you're going to cherish it, treat it right.

Some of us stay true to this, you appreciate what you've earned and you continue to work hard to maintain what you have because you don't know how long its going to be there for.

On the other had, some of us, most of us take it for granted, content with what you've achieved, with the mentality that what you've done is enough. You get lazy, what you have becomes damaged, tired and worn out. Before you know it, it's gone, and you're sitting there alone, back where you started, wondering "what did i do?". And the simple answer is... nothing

You did nothing. So you get nothing.

You get what you give.

Don't just work hard to achieve it, work hard to keep it.

UPDATE! Let's do this!

Farrrrkkk its been a while since i've done this huh!

okay so here's the update

- Am I on top of uni work???

Well i'm changing my major....and i wanna withdraw ASAP..so no

- Do I have a well balanced social life...well i have a girlfriend now =D which is awesome.
been spending a lot of time with her though...I mean at the start it was good but hmm..

- Saving moneys? nope...waiting for some pay to come in then i should be okay...i hope

- Read more books? noooooo havent even tried

- Clean my room - its not too bad now =)

Honestly I've kinda regressed to my chode ways.....

Kinda self-loathing, depressing etc etc.....

I havent been to the gym in a while either....

Been pretty stressed lately =/ just with uni and work and having a girlfriend and trying to hang out with the boys.

Its really no-ones fault but my own...i can't seem to rationalise what's good for me in the long run.

I need to find some structure in my life.

I don't like myself at the moment.

I was watching "Forgetting Sarah Marshall" and I see a lot of myself in Peter Brenner. I remember when she said "I was tired of looking after you, when you wouldn't look after yourself".

It seems like, now, that i have a girlfriend i just become so complaisant with every other part of my life. Which is REALLY bad. I don't want my girlfriend looking after me! makes me a bad boyfriend. It's not manly at all, I want to be looking after her.

What am dealing with at the moment?

Stress with juggling Uni and work.
Still not used to having a Step mum.
Which makes me miss my mum.
And financially i'm not as well off as i used to be....

thinking about it makes me feel crap.

My girlfriend bought me an Emporio Armani watch cos she wanted to make me feel better.
which was nice, its was the watch i've been eyeing for a while =).
It made me smile, but short lived, you know....love her for trying though =)

once i'm withdrawn from the course should be better, 1 less thing to worry about, once i start working more hours, financially i should be fine so 2 less things to worry about =).

need to hit the gym hard. my gym buddy is coming back from the philippines so i'm looking forward to that =).

hopefully i'll be okay =)